I'm the first person to admit I'm a control freak. It's not like I can hide it anyway. If you've known me for even a short period of time, chances are you've seen me in action. And no, I'm not proud. Being a control freak isn't a good thing. In fact, some might call it downright annoying.
I used to make excuses for it:
I can't help it! I'd say. That's just the way I am!
But, ya know what? That's not altogether true. I know when I'm being overly controlling. I feel it. Just like an alcoholic yearns for one more drink, I crave control in any situation. I see myself jumping in, taking charge, directing the flow of traffic. It's cringe-worthy at times. And yet, I just continue to do it.
So recently, I decided to take control release control of the situation by exploring the causes and creating strategies for how I can improve my behavior. If you're in a similar boat, I encourage you to do the same. After all, being a control freak isn't as likeable as it sounds.
Why Am I Such a Freak?
So, is there a reason for this kind of character trait? (Note: we're not going to call it a flaw. It's just a thing that could be improved, okay?) Where does it come from?
After a little research (and some self-reflection), I've discovered that most control issues stem from a few things. See if any of the following statements ring true for you:
- I have incredibly high standards and I don't trust others to uphold them.
- I have high anxiety and taking a leadership role makes me feel more comfortable and calm.
- I have a fear of disorganization, failure, and chaos. If I'm in control and bad things happen, it's my own fault. And I trust myself more than others to keep the bad stuff away.
- I have a love of the spotlight. By taking control, I often get all the credit or appreciation for a job well done.
- I have a big ego. I like to be in a position to show off my skills.
- I like to feel needed. Being the one in control makes my presence seem more important.
Obviously, the items on this list aren't very flattering. Don't worry; no judgment here.
It's also pretty easy to see that these issues might cause some problems.
What's Wrong With It?
I used to tell myself that being a control freak wasn't such a big deal. Only, it is. And here's why:
- It can seriously damage your relationships.
Think about it: When you try to control every situation, even if it's not your intention, others start to worry that you don't trust them. They also get sick of following your lead. You may notice friends and family starting to pull away from you, getting irritated or exasperated. Or perhaps they've simply given up and accepted you're the one who gets control. That's not really fair to them and, ultimately, they could end up resenting you for it.
- It can cause you an extraordinary amount of emotional, mental and physical stress.
And most of the time, it's completely unnecessary! When we always feel like we have to be in control of the world around us every second of every day, we're adding a tremendous amount of pressure to our lives. We do it to ourselves and it's just not healthy.
So, What Can I Do?
If you're a control freak (like me) I have a few suggestions. These come from personal experience so trust me when I tell you they work. They're not all easy to do, but if you're dedicated to making a change, this is a great place to start.
- Let go of your ego. Take yourself down a notch. You're great, but so are others. You have to share the spotlight and let others use their skills. Believe it or not, you're not the best at everything.
- Delegate to others. Start small. Train people how to do things if they aren't familiar. See what it feels like to rely on others to do the work. And enjoy how good it feels to watch them blossom with the added confidence you've shown in them.
- Acknowledge you can't control everything. Give yourself a break and learn to go with the flow now and again. Once you see everything works out just fine without your intervention, you'll get more comfortable with the idea.
- Make a conscious decision to completely give up control in one small area of your life. Maybe you'll let others decide what's for dinner. Maybe you'll go on vacation without planning a single excursion. Maybe you'll just take a walk without knowing where you're going. Whatever you choose, let the circumstances and people around you take the lead. Bite your tongue, sit back and relax. You're a passenger. Enjoy the view.
Now, it's worth mentioning control isn't always a horrible thing. It's wonderful to take control at times, show off your leadership abilities and your decisive point-of-view. But there's a point where it goes too far. Put yourself in check regularly. And, if you're constantly being told that you're a control freak, don't just write it off as an inescapable character trait. Take a few proactive steps to share the spotlight and hand the reins to someone else. Everyone, even you, will be better for it.
Chrissy Scivicque (pronounced Civic) is an award-winning freelance writer/editor with a passion for two things: food and helping others.