Khloé Kardashian is reportedly having a tough time deciding about her life with her estranged husband, Lamar Odom, and boyfriend James Harden with both in the picture. According to Hollywood Life, the “Keeping Up with the Kardashians” star is “really confused.”

“She’s really confused right now. When she’s with James, she’s so into him but when she’s with Lamar, she feels like she’s with her soulmate. Obviously she would never say that James. She is torn and exhausted. Khloe knows if she wants to keep James in the picture, she must make it seem like Lamar has no one else he can depend on except for her,” a source told Hollywood Life.

Kardashian called off her divorce from Odom following his hospitalization last month. The former Los Angeles Lakers star was found unconscious at a brothel outside Las Vegas on Oct. 13.

“Khloé knows if she wants to keep James in the picture, she must make it seem like Lamar has no one else he can depend on except for her,” an insider told Hollywood Life in an exclusive report Monday.

Kardashian enjoys being with Harden, 26, but she can’t leave Odom, 36, alone while he is recovering.

“If she didn’t call off the divorce, Lamar would have tons of worthless leeches around him, including his old party buddies,” another source told Hollywood Life. “Khloé has been telling James repeatedly that Lamar needs her.”

On Monday night, the 31-year-old opened up about her marriage during a book-signing in Hollywood.

“I'm still married for a multitude reasons, but intimacy is not one of them," the reality TV star said, according NBC News. She said Odom is "doing better every day for sure -- which is a blessing -- but it's going to be a long road, and he has to walk that road. He has to walk that road, it's going to be a long time."

Kardashian and her basketball player boyfriend spent some time together Sunday night at Hollywood's Lure nightclub.

Meanwhile, things between Kardashian and Odom have not been going good. Odom reportedly “felt awkward” when his estranged wife, her mother, Kris Jenner, and sister Kim Kardashian West arrived at his birthday party at Cedars-Sinai hospital in California Friday