Nirvana frontman Kurt Cobain died 22 years ago Tuesday in a suicide that millions of fans still aren't convinced about. Seattle’s chief medical examiner determined Cobain, who was 27 at the time of his death, shot himself in the head with a shotgun. The grunge singer struggled with heroin addiction. Days before his untimely death, he was released from a rehab facility.
Last year, the HBO documentary “Cobain: Montage of Heck” was released. Unlike “Soaked In Bleach,” his widow, Hole frontwoman Courtney Love, authorized this film. It contained interviews with family members, and also had audio clips from Cobain. Some of the quotes Cobain spoke in the film, which came from archived interviews, have been provided below:
“In a community that stresses macho male sexual stories as a highlight of all conversation, I was an underdeveloped, immature little dude that never got laid and was constantly razzed. ‘Oh, poor little kid.’ It bothered me probably more so because I was horny and frequently had to make up stories like, Oh, when I went on vacation, I met this chick and we f---ed and she loved it.’"
“I accumulated quite a healthy complex, not to mention a complexion. Then one day I discovered the most ultimate form of expression ever: marijuana. Oh, boy-- pot! I could escape all day long and not have routine nervous breakdowns.”
“It turned out that pot didn't help me to escape my troubles too well anymore and I was actually enjoying doing rebellious things like stealing booze and busting store windows. And nothing ever mattered. I decided within the next month, I'll not sit on my roof and think about jumping, but I'll actually kill myself. And I wasn't going out of this world without knowing what it was actually like to get laid."
“I couldn't handle the ridicule, so I got high and drunk and walked down to the train tracks, and laid down and put two big pieces of cement on my chest and legs and I waited for the eleven o-clock train. And the train came closer and closer and closer, and it went on the next track beside me instead of over me.”
“[I] never had any friends because I hated everyone, for they were so phony.”
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