Former UFC champion Ronda Rousey thought suicide was her only option after her devastating loss to Holly Holm at UFC 193, she told Ellen DeGeneres Tuesday. The one-time undefeated MMA star felt like “nothing” after Holm tarnished her perfect record in Melbourne.

"Honestly, like, my thought, in the medical room, down in the corner, I was like, 'What am I anymore if I'm not this?'" Rousey, 28, said, with tears in her eyes. "And I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself, and that exact second I'm like, 'I'm nothing, what do I do anymore, and no one gives a s--- about me anymore without this.'"

But it was her boyfriend, fellow UFC fighter Travis Browne, who gave her hope. "To be honest, I looked up, and I saw my man Travis was standing up there. And I looked up at him, and I was like, 'I need to have his babies, I need to stay alive,'" she said, this time with a laugh. "Really, that was it ... I was meant to have him when I was at my lowest, for sure. I don't know if I would have made it without him."

Rousey wants a rematch against Holm in July, and UFC President Dana White thinks she’s more than ready to get back in the octagon. She’s "f---ing amazing,” he said about her mental state now. "Trust me, she's good right now and in a great place," White told TMZ Tuesday. "Winners don't like to lose." He added: "I have never worked an athlete like her!!! She is f---ing amazing in every way."

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