Ronda Rousey
UFC star Ronda Rousey, pictured above Aug. 11, 2014, said she contemplated suicide after she lost to Holly Holm in UFC 193. Getty Images

Former UFC champion Ronda Rousey thought suicide was her only option after her devastating loss to Holly Holm at UFC 193, she told Ellen DeGeneres Tuesday. The one-time undefeated MMA star felt like “nothing” after Holm tarnished her perfect record in Melbourne.

"Honestly, like, my thought, in the medical room, down in the corner, I was like, 'What am I anymore if I'm not this?'" Rousey, 28, said, with tears in her eyes. "And I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself, and that exact second I'm like, 'I'm nothing, what do I do anymore, and no one gives a s--- about me anymore without this.'"

But it was her boyfriend, fellow UFC fighter Travis Browne, who gave her hope. "To be honest, I looked up, and I saw my man Travis was standing up there. And I looked up at him, and I was like, 'I need to have his babies, I need to stay alive,'" she said, this time with a laugh. "Really, that was it ... I was meant to have him when I was at my lowest, for sure. I don't know if I would have made it without him."

Rousey wants a rematch against Holm in July, and UFC President Dana White thinks she’s more than ready to get back in the octagon. She’s "f---ing amazing,” he said about her mental state now. "Trust me, she's good right now and in a great place," White told TMZ Tuesday. "Winners don't like to lose." He added: "I have never worked an athlete like her!!! She is f---ing amazing in every way."

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