A Florida woman describes having 50 orgasms a day as “torture;” a torture she has endured for 14 years.
Amanda Gryce, 22, suffers from a rare condition known as Persistent Sexual Arousal Syndrome, or PSAS, that causes her to have countless, uncontrollable orgasms that can be exacerbated by everyday things such as loud music, car rides and ringing mobile phones, the UK Sun details.
Having dealt with the condition since the age of 8, Gryce says she often masturbates up to 15 times day in an attempt to quell her constant state of arousal.
“It is not pleasurable: You could say it has become a torture. This condition controls your life completely and it is like living a nightmare,” she told the Sun.
The sales associate in a baby products shop says it has come to the point where she just had to grin and bear it in public; however, at home, she can do special yoga type poses that help her control her orgasms.
“It happens when I’m with my friends or out in public and it’s very embarrassing. It kills me inside. I just have to put on a smile and pretend that nothing’s wrong,” Gryce said.
“Orgasms are supposed to be a good feeling but I’ve had them every day for so long now that I’m living with constant fear and shame.”
Having been raised Catholic, Gryce says spending her childhood with the condition was especially strenuous, as her Sunday school taught that sexual thoughts and masturbation was a sin, she kept what she was going through a secret from her family for many years.
“As a child I had no idea what was happening to me — I thought I was just sex-obsessed,” she told the Sun.
Growing up was not much better; after fearing sex for many years, Gryce had sex for the first time at the age of 20 and soon discovered that her condition also hindered her ability to maintain a relationship.
“I’ve been with a few guys, but it’s difficult -- I’ve found some guys are even intimidated,” she said.
Gryce did not get any insight to her condition until 2008, when she learned about PSAS from a radio program.
Despite its rarity, the condition is known to have devastating effects on its sufferers, such as 39-year-old, fellow Florida native, Gretchen Molannen, who committed suicide last year after having lived with PSAS for 16 years, the Daily Mail details.
The disorder will be included in the coming update of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, DSM-5 that is scheduled to release in May, 2013.
Gryce admits that her condition has made her consider suicide at times.
“At my lowest points, I have thought about suicide but I had to reassure myself that I would never resort to something like that and that it wasn’t going to happen to me,” she said.
However, she also says being able to be open about her experience has helped her as well.
“Thankfully I’ve had the courage to tell my family and they have all been very understanding and supportive,” Gryce told the Sun.
“I get people say I’m making it up and that I’m really a nymphomaniac but I don’t let it phase me,” she continued.
“I just now hope that there will one day be more understanding of this condition and my story will give just one other person the courage to get support.”