Gwen Stefani is holding nothing back about her split from Gavin Rossdale. The two, who were married for 13 years, called it quits late last year — which the “Used To Love You” singer says is still difficult for her, despite having found new love. 

In an interview with PrideSource Stefani, 46, called the end of a marriage “the worst thing” aside from death. She explained marriage and motherhood had always been dreams of hers after growing up with parents who also happened to have been high school sweethearts. Stefani told PrideSource that she did what she could to save her marriage, but it was unsalvageable. She claimed the split had left her feeling “embarrassed,” adding that her dreams were completely crushed.

“My whole life all I wanted to do was be a mother and a wife, and I had the dream of having this family because that’s what I had,” she said. “I have parents who’ve been married since high school, who are in love, and they’re still in love. ... I had a perfect example, so it’s super tragic for me. My dreams are shattered and I feel so embarrassed about what happened.”

Although Stefani is still harboring some hard feelings about the demise of her marriage, she and new boyfriend and fellow “The Voice” coach Blake Shelton seem to be getting on just fine. The pair reunited on the music competition show’s stage Tuesday where they engaged in some not-so-subtle flirtation. Shelton joked about his girlfriend’s lack of knowledge about country music before he quipped that it was OK because “she's hot.”

The pair confirmed their relationship in November. In an interview with Refinery29, Stefani opened up about what brought her and Shelton together. She explained their shared experiences with divorce, as well as the similar nature of both splits, was a major contributing factor. The Grammy award winner said finding Shelton when she did “saved” her.

“I think that when you go through what I went through, or what I’m still going through, you think you’re hopeless. You don’t know what’s going to happen. You panic," she said. “It was a really super-unexpected gift to find a friend, somebody who happened to be going through the exact same thing as me, literally mirroring my experience. I don’t think it’s an accident that that happened. It saved me.”

Stefani was, of course, referencing Shelton and ex-wife Miranda Lambert’s split. The pair announced their plans to divorce in July, releasing a statement to the Associated Press. While his divorce garnered much attention from the media, Stefani was reportedly struggling with her own split from Rossdale, 50. The couple officially called it quits in October.