Convicted killer Jodi Arias begged the jury for her life in court on Tuesday, but just because she's trying to avoid the ultimate punishment doesn't mean she's going to apologize to Travis Alexander's family any time soon. The murderess attacked her former lover on June 4, 2008 at his Arizona home, stabbing him nearly 30 times and shooting him in the head. She ended up dragging his corpse into the shower and fled the scene, initially denying involvement in the case for years.
Arias has continually fumbled over her words when it comes to the jury: from saying they would never convict her, to asking for the death penalty after her conviction and now pleading for her life just a week after she was taken off suicide watch in prison. It's no surprise the jury is deadlocked.
In the latest development, Arias, 32, told ABC News it was "meaningless" to apologize to Alexander's family for the murder. "I think in a sense, the words, 'I'm sorry,' just seemed meaningless, especially since nobody believes what I'm saying anyway," Arias told the news site. She told the Alexander family she never meant to cause them harm, but the words "I'm sorry" did not leave her lips.
When she was asked why she didn't apologize to the family, she said she had. But when she was reminded that she didn't use the words "I'm sorry," she replied to ABC News: "Well, then I'm sorry I didn't say that. Because certainly I am sorry. I think in a sense, I-- the-- the words, 'I'm sorry,' just seemed meaningless, especially since nobody believes what I'm saying anyway. "
Arias added, "I think people believe that because I lied, that everything that comes out of my mouth is a lie. Which is unfortunate, because, if that were the case, then that would be true for everyone. Because I don't know somebody that's never lied."
The same jury that convicted her of murdering her ex-boyfriend will also decide if she will be sentenced to death. "I feel a little betrayed by them," Arias said of the Phoenix jury. "I don't dislike them. I just was really hoping that they would see things for what they are. And I don't feel that they did." The 32-year-old claimed self-defense, saying Alexander had attacked her when she dropped his camera in the bathroom during a post-sex photo shoot.
If allowed to live, Arias reportedly told the jury she would donate her hair, help recycle trash and design T-shirts to raise money for victims of domestic abuse. "All I know is that, if I were given freedom again, I would handle it very, very responsibly," Arias said. "If you're not abusing me and attacking me and threatening to kill my life, there's no reason to fear."
If Arias were to be sentenced to death, she would be moved to Arizona's state prison complex at Perryville and become the third woman on the state's death row. "I try not to think about it. But if I'm confronted with that reality, then I will deal with it," she told ABC News.