Kristen Stewart
Kristen Stewart says she wants to be a musician but is afraid that people might not accept her as a singer. Reuters/Charles Platiau

Kristen Stewart has left her damsel in distress image far behind and is now more rebellious or “feral,” as she calls herself in an interview with fashion magazine Marie Claire. The “Twilight” actress confessed age made her “smarter and calmer” and she likes her new self.

Stewart, 25, was in Atlanta at the time of interview, shooting the Ang Lee directed “Billy Lynn's Long Halftime Walk,” slated for 2016 release, according to IMDb. In the movie, an “infantryman recounts the final hours before he and his fellow soldiers return to Iraq,” IMDb says. Stewart plays Kathryn Lynn, starring alongside Vin Diesel, Garrett Hedlund and Chris Tucker.

The actress has come a long way from playing love-struck girl Bella Swan in the “Twilight” series, where she falls for a vampire. She recalled her early 20s when she kick-started her movie career as a “traumatic period.” Stewart said she was a “control freak” between ages 15 to 20. “If I didn't know how something was going to turn out, I would make myself ill, or just be locked up or inhibited in a way that was really debilitating," Stewart told Marie Claire.

But the “Still Alice” actress has embraced her shortcomings and said she doesn't stress about her public persona. "Lately, I've been doing less of the 'I'm sooooo sorry.' And more of the 'No. F---. Jesus,'" the actress said.

Stewart is “really proud” she has been able to move forward and “not fall into every mental crater.” Though she admitted it is a new thing for her, with age she has become “smarter and calmer.” “And it is f------ awesome," Stewart said.

The ex-girlfriend of Robert Pattinson also talked about why she chopped off her long locks. She told the magazine that earlier she could hide behind her long hair and “be sexy” in any look, but with short hair, her face is more visible. “I felt more confident than I had in a really long time. And it felt really good,” she said.