KEY POINTS

  • Cara Delevingne recalled a time when wasn't comfortable talking about her sexuality
  • She said she grew up in an "old-fashioned household" where same-sex relationships weren't openly discussed
  • The model said she once felt "disgusted" at the thought of being with a same-sex partner

Cara Delevingne is now open about her sexuality, but she admitted that there was a time when she was "quite homophobic" and felt "disgusted" with the idea of being with a same-sex partner.

Delevingne got candid about coming to terms with her sexuality during a recent chat with Gwyneth Paltrow on the latter's "Goop" podcast. The English supermodel spoke about growing up in an "old-fashioned household" where conversations regarding same-sex relationships didn't take place openly.

"I didn't know anyone who was gay, or I didn't know that was a thing. Actually, I think growing up I was quite...not noticeably or I wasn't knowledgeable of the fact that I was probably quite homophobic," the 28-year-old told the Goop founder.

"The idea of being same sex anything, I was disgusted by that in myself, I was like, 'Oh my god. Oh I could never! That's disgusting!' So, learning and growing up and realizing that maybe I had a best friend when I was a kid who actually I liked more than they liked me, but not realizing that that's what that was," Delevingne added.

Due to this, the model, who has since opened up about being pansexual, said she felt a lot of "shame" and "self-hatred" during that time in her life, which then took a toll on her mental health.

"I do kind of correlate the kind of massive depression and the suicidal kind of moments of my life because I was so ashamed of ever being that but actually that was the part of me that I love so much and I accept it," said Delevingne, who previously dated Ashley Benson.

During an interview with Variety last year, Delevingne also shared how she stayed away from labels.

“The thing is with me, I change a lot. I feel different all the time. Some days, I feel more womanly. Some days, I feel more like a man," said the British beauty.

While describing her identity, she said, “I always will remain, I think, pansexual. However one defines themselves, whether it’s ‘they’ or ‘he’ or ‘she,’ I fall in love with the person, and that’s that. I’m attracted to the person.”

Over the years, Delevingne has also managed to show her acting skills on the big screen, but it wasn't easy for her to bag Hollywood projects.

The "Suicide Squad" actress recalled what Harvey Weinstein told her in the initial days of her career. “Harvey was one of the people that told me I couldn’t be with a woman and also be an actress. I had to have a beard," she said about the disgraced movie mogul, who was sentenced to 23 years in prison for rape and sexual assault last year.

But this did not stop Delevingne from acting as she went on to star in many movies, including "Paper Towns," “Carnival Row," "Valerian and the City of a Thousand Planets" and "London Fields."

Cara Delevingne Actress and model Cara Delevingne came forward Wednesday with a damning account of her experiences with beleaguered film producer Harvey Weinstein. In this photo, actress Cara Delevingne attends the 'Paper Towns' New York Premiere at AMC Loews Lincoln Square on July 21, 2015 in New York City. Photo: Photo by Dimitrios Kambouris/Getty Images