Oh, if Farrah Abraham could only turn back time. The “Couples Therapy” star famously made a “leaked” sex tape, which many consider a well-devised porno, with adult star James Deen. Now she says the “Backdoor Teen Mom” video literally "ruined" her life.

Abraham got her start on television with MTV’s “16 and Pregnant” and has pretty much done everything in her power to stay in the limelight, whether it be her reoccurring role on “Teen Mom” or allegedly finding a “fake” boyfriend for “Couples Therapy.” Either way, the 22-year-old mother of one now says the sex tape was a pretty bad idea in retrospect.

“Knowing my sex tape was out there for everyone in the world to see ... was overwhelming,” Abraham told In Touch magazine. “I wanted to hide my face and not go out or pick up my phone.”

“It made it hard to have friends and a private life and to trust family, who I feel use me for money,” Abraham added. “If I went back in time, I would not have done it. The sex tape ruined my life.”

It should be known, as Celebuzz pointed out, that Abraham’s video was a professionally produced video, but she still calls it a sex tape. Also, she didn’t exactly go into hiding. She showed up for a promotional appearance at the Vivid Gentlemen's Club and gave lap dances. Also, the reality star very publicly celebrated her 22nd birthday at the Hard Rock Hollywood in Florida just weeks after the tape’s release, which is allegedly where she met ex-boyfriend Brian Dawe, 31, who is the guy she wanted to come to “Couples Therapy” with.

“He abandoned me,” Abraham told In Touch. They supposedly signed up for the VH1 show together but then Dawe backed out at the last minute. Abraham appeared on the show solo. “Therapy helped me understand I can’t continue experiencing life [the way I had been], that I’m more special than sex tapes,” she said. “Hearing others tell me my worth is [all based on] my body. ... I’m stronger than that.”

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