Actor-producer-director Tyler Perry will receive special honors on Emmys night
Actor-producer-director Tyler Perry will receive special honors on Emmys night AFP / JEAN-BAPTISTE LACROIX


  • Tyler Perry opened up about his suicide attempts in the past
  • The filmmaker urged anyone struggling to contact other people for help
  • Perry reacted to the death of Stephen "tWitch" Boss, who died by suicide

Tyler Perry opened up about the "dark" times he had in the past while reacting to the death of Stephen "tWitch" Boss," who died by suicide on Tuesday.

The 52-year-old filmmaker took to Instagram to share his devastation on the tragic death of the former "Ellen DeGeneres Show" DJ and "So You Think You Can Dance" judge, who was only 40 years old. He uploaded a video where he reflected on the "couple of times" he attempted suicide in the past.

"I, like the rest of the world, am shocked by the death of Stephen Boss, tWitch," Perry began, adding that the incident drove him to share a message "to any of you who are going through hard times, struggling."

He continued, "I've only met him a couple of times. He was always full of life, it seemed like, such a light."

The "Madea's Big Happy Family" star then recalled the "dark" moments in his life, saying, "With that said, I just want to take you back to a time in my life when I tried to commit suicide, a couple of times, because it was so dark, I didn't think it would get any better. I had endured so much pain, so much abuse, sexual abuse, it was all so hard to just move through that I thought the only way to make this better was to end my life."

"Had any of those attempts happened, I would've missed the best part of my life," he added, emphasizing that those who are "going through some things" and feeling hopeless should reach out for help.

Further in the video, Perry shared one of the lessons he learned from being at the lowest point of his life, explaining, "Not all the time — sometimes — the pain is a buy-in. That's the way I had to learn to look at it to get through it. What I mean by that is, all that pain, all that hell, all that struggle, if I had given up, if I had stopped, I wouldn't have seen the better part of my life. I was buying into something; I was paying for something."

"I know that doesn't make sense to a lot of people, but for me, it was the way I was able to rationalize it, to be able to move through the pain, knowing that if I could just get through this moment, there's got to be something better," he added.

In hopes of inspiring other people, the comedian shared that he is now "the happiest I've ever been." Before, his life was not filled with "joy and love, things I never thought I'd get to [enjoy]." He also advised other people who are currently struggling not to let "darkness stop you from getting to this incredible place of life."

"My hope is that if you need help, you reach out. Call this number [the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255)]. God bless you. I'm with you. I'm a living witness you can make it through it," he said before concluding that the year should end with "loving on each other, and ourselves, this is [going to] take that from within."

Boss reportedly died of suicide due to a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head, Page Six reported citing the Los Angeles County Medical Examiner. His body was found in the bathroom of his motel room at Oak Tree Inn in Encino, California, Tuesday morning.

West Valley Division officers responded to an emergency call from the establishment, less than a mile away from Boss' Los Angeles home. Hotel staffers claimed they did not notice "any sort of distress" from the professional dancer.

The "SYTCYD" alum's wife, Allison Holker Boss, confirmed the death of her husband through a statement to People, saying, "It is with the heaviest of hearts that I have to share my husband Stephen has left us." She added that she and her three children "ask for privacy during this difficult time."

If you have thoughts of suicide, confidential help is available for free at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. Call 1-800-273-8255. The line is available 24 hours, every day.

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Tyler Perry at the 7th Annual Produced By Conference at Paramount Studios in Los Angeles on May 31, 2015. Getty Images