KEY POINTS

  • The Billie Eilish documentary "The World's a Little Blurry" reveals details about her relationship with ex-boyfriend "Q"
  • The Grammy winner described him as "self-destructive" after he was injured from punching a wall
  • Eilish said they broke up because there was "a lack of effort"

Billie Eilish has opened up about a past relationship in the new Apple+ TV documentary about her life.

Eilish rarely talks about her love life, but in "The World’s a Little Blurry," she gave fans a glimpse into her romance with a man she calls "Q," who was identified by Rolling Stone as rapper Brandon Adams, who goes by the stage name 7:AMP. In the beginning, they can be seen holding hands, with the "Bad Guy" singer telling him she was falling for him.

"You're so fine. I love you," she was quoted by The Hollywood Reporter as saying. "I'm in love with you."

The documentary, later on, shows the friction in their relationship, with Eilish’s ex-boyfriend refusing to show up at major events for her, including the party hosted by her label Interscope at Coachella.

She also found out that he was hospitalized for punching a wall. "I'm trying to get him to go to therapy. He's so self-destructive," she said to a friend.

By the end of the documentary, Eilish and Q are broken up. The "Lovely" hitmaker said she decided to let go and move on because she was no longer happy. Further, they don't want the same things, which, for her, is not ideal in a relationship.

"I don't think you should be in a relationship super excited about things that the other person couldn't care less about," Eilish said in the feature. "I don't think that's fair to you. I don't think that's fair to him. There was just a lack of effort. I was literally like, 'Dude, you don't have enough love to love yourself so you can't love me, dude. And you don't. [laughs] You think you do.'"

"I do love him though, which made it harder. I'm not over him, I didn't find someone else," she added. "I didn't stop having love for him. I just spent time away from him for a little bit and I was like, 'Wow I'm missing so much because I'm worried about you all the time and I don't want what you want and you don't want what I want.' I don't want to fix him. I can't fix him. I tried."

The Grammy winner also briefly spoke about her past love with Vanity Fair.

"That was a huge part of my life," she said. "And nobody knew it. It was this main thing that was taking control of my life."

In related news, Eilish revealed earlier this year that she had a "horrible" relationship with her body and took weight loss pills when she was just 12 years old. She was also thankful that the fuss over her viral tank top photo last year happened at a time when she was already comfortable with her body.

"I think that the people around me were more worried about it than I was, because the reason I used to cut myself was because of my body. To be quite honest with you, I only started wearing baggy clothes because of my body," she told Vanity Fair.

She continued, "I was really, really glad though, mainly, that I’m in this place in my life, because if that had happened three years ago, when I was in the midst of my horrible body relationship—or dancing a ton, five years ago, I wasn’t really eating. I was, like, starving myself."

"Billie Eilish: The World's a Little Blurry" is out now on Apple TV+.

Billie Eilish with Fender Ukulele Billie Eilish plays Fenders Billie Eilish Signature Ukulele in a promotional photo. Photo: Fender