Charles Manson Son Matthew Roberts
Matthew Roberts at The Vector Gallery Presents "The Retrial Of Charles Manson" at Vector Gallery on Dec. 28, 2015 in Los Angeles. He is one of Manson's "sons." Getty Images

Matthew Roberts, the “son” of cult leader Charles Manson, rushed to the prisoner’s side after he heard about his hospitalization Tuesday. Roberts found out about the news from Manson’s fiancée, Afton “Star” Burton. Roberts is not Manson’s biological son, but is one of his devoted followers.

“I want to get up there in person and see what's going on. This could be it, that's my greatest fear. If he's on his deathbed I would like to tell him I love him, because I do,” Roberts told Radar Online in an exclusive report Wednesday. “Everybody has a unique and special sort of love for their progenitors even if they are different or disturbed or monsters.”

Manson, now 82, was sent to prison for life after the murders of seven people in 1969. Even though Manson did not kill anyone, he organized the hits.

Charles Manson
Charles Manson's story plays out on-screen in Lifetime's "Manson's Lost Girls." Pictured: Charles Manson talks during an interview, Aug. 25, 1989. Reuters

He hasn’t seen the notorious cult leader yet, but Roberts is hoping for the chance to visit Manson at the hospital, which is 60 miles from where the mass murderer was imprisoned in Corcoran, California. “Just him looking at me and me looking at him could be a pretty profound experience,” Roberts said. “I've never known what it’s like to lay eyes on my biological parents. That would be a big thing for me.”

Manson is reportedly getting surgery for a heart related problem. He is in “serious condition,” said Roberts.

Roberts wants to continue Manson’s message if he dies, but only the “nonviolent revolution of consciousness" and the “evolution of the human spirit.”

Manson’s murders were in an effort to start a race war. His followers left bloody messages at the crime scene. He is responsible for the Aug. 8, 1969 death of director Roman Polanski’s wife Sharon Tate, who was 8 ½ months pregnant. Also killed alongside Tate were Jay Sebring, Voytek Frykowski, Abigail Folger, 25 and Steven Parent. The following day, Leno and Rosemary LaBianca were killed.

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