“Jane the Virgin” creator Jennie Snyder Urman knew fans would be upset after watching Chapter Fifty-Four. After all, they had just killed off one of the sweetest, most beloved characters to ever grace the small screen: Michael Cordero (Brett Dier).

Even though the show executed his passing in the most beautiful way, that does not make Michael’s death any easier to bear. Like Michael’s wife Jane Gloriana Villanueva (Gina Rodriguez), fans, including those who are Team Rafael, felt that the pain of his loss is too much to bear.

In order to soothe fans’ heartache, Snyder wrote an open letter to them on her Tumblr page and explained their thought process in writing the death scene. She said they knew about Michael’s death very early on, and that is why in Season 1, they had the narrator foreshadow it subtly by saying Michael would never stop loving Jane. “For as long as Michael lived, until he drew his very last breath, he never did,” said the narrator.

“Honestly, I put that line into the script at the last minute to hold our feet to the fire, to make sure we went through with it. Because even back then, the writers could all see the magic of Jane and Michael together.  Not to mention Rogelio (Jamie Camil) and Michael!” she wrote.

“The other reason I put that line in the script was to prepare you… a little,” Snyder continued. “If the writers and actors loved Michael so much, then I knew it would be devastating for the fans.”

In fact, Snyder said they planned on killing Michael earlier, but Dier was just so amazing as Michael that they tried to hold off his death for as long as they could. “I’m so glad we did that and I’m so glad all those firsts for Jane were with Michael.  But this is a telenovela, as we so frequently remind you.  And we are only at our midpoint,” she explained.

But even after dying, Snyder said Michael will still be a part of the show. When Vulture asked if he’ll appear through flashbacks, Snyder confirmed, “Oh, for sure. For sure. Exactly. In her fantasies. And you will feel him, I will say, very, very much, as we continue.”

However, Dier told Entertainment Weekly that he hasn’t shot any new scenes as Michael.