YouTuber Rebecca Zamolo Gets Emotional While Talking About Miscarriage In Heartbreaking Video

YouTube star Rebecca Zamolo has opened up about her miscarriage in a heartbreaking new video.

Zamolo revealed that she suffered a miscarriage nine weeks into her pregnancy in a YouTube video she posted Saturday. The YouTuber explained that she and her husband, Matt Slays, have "always wanted to have a family, that's been a dream of ours forever."

The surgery she underwent four years ago to have her colon removed had made it "harder" for her to have kids. They were desperate to have a family and started IVF treatments a year ago.

Zamolo recalled the IVF process and how excited she and her husband were when they learned that she was pregnant. But they learned days later that she had a chemical pregnancy, an early pregnancy loss.

The couple underwent another round of IVF, and Zamolo had an implantation after Thanksgiving and found out she was pregnant again.

"I wanted to tell everyone, I wanted to tell you guys. But, obviously, they say don't say anything," she told her 10 million followers through tears.

Zamolo told her mother and sister, who had earlier offered to be her surrogate, about the pregnancy news. She was so excited upon realizing that her body "could hold a baby." However, something went wrong during their week 9 appointment.

"I didn't see a flicker," she said of the ultrasound scan. "I was like, 'How come there's no flicker?' I instantly had a gut feeling. I was like, 'Something is wrong.'"

"That moment, it was like it was all done. This whole plan, this whole pregnancy was over. We weren't even expecting this at this point. Our chances were like less than 6% of a miscarriage at this point, and my levels were so strong. We were caught off guard," she added.

Zamolo recalled everyone being "in shock" over the development. She also admitted that while mothers shouldn't blame themselves when suffering a miscarriage, she began questioning herself and whether she had been careful enough.

"I know you're not supposed to blame yourself, but I'm like, 'Was there something I did?' I was so careful," she said.

"It's almost like, as a woman, you just feel like you're not worthy if you can't bear a child. I started thinking about how I've connected with so many of you ... and how much I appreciated the connection once I opened up. I was thinking about it and I got angry. It was like, society tells us as women that we have to keep this private, even the husbands. We can't talk about it, so you have no support system. ... You feel all alone," she added.

Following her miscarriage, Zamolo said they are "back at zero." However, she remains positive and believes their journey is not yet over.

In May 2020, Zamolo shared a clip on Instagram to celebrate her sixth wedding anniversary with her husband. The video included photos of her when she was a child, and in the caption, she told her younger self that she is "Rebecca from your future" and the man on the video is "going to be the father of your children one day soon."