KEY POINTS

  • Demi Lovato said in her new documentary that she was "taken advantage of" on the night of her 2018 overdose
  • The "Skyscraper" singer said she decided to no longer be completely sober
  • "Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil" is set to release on YouTube on March 23

Demi Lovato is getting candid about her struggles, including the night she suffered a near-fatal overdose three years ago, in her new docuseries, which premiered Tuesday at the SXSW Film Festival.

Warning: This story contains sensitive topics including sexual assault and drug abuse.

Lovato revealed in her YouTube docuseries, "Dancing With the Devil," that she was sexually assaulted by her drug dealer on the July 2018 night she has said she almost died.

"What people don't realize about that night for me is that I didn't just overdose, I also was taken advantage of," the singer alleged in the second episode of the four-part documentary, as quoted by E! News.

Sirah Mitchell, a friend of ​Lovato, said the unnamed drug dealer had given the "Skyscraper" hitmaker heroin "laced with fentanyl" that night. "He also ended up getting her really high and leaving her for dead," Mitchell said in the film.

"When they found me, I was naked, I was blue, I was literally left for dead after he took advantage of me," Lovato recalled. "And when I woke up in the hospital, they asked if I had had consensual sex. And there was one flash that I had of him on top of me, I saw that flash and I said yes."

However, Lovato later realized that she had been in a highly inebriated state and couldn't have made a "consensual decision" at the time. "That kind of trauma doesn’t go away overnight," she continued.

Lovato went on to recall that she'd wanted to take "the power back" from the drug dealer who sexually assaulted her. After a weeklong intensive trauma retreat, she called him and told him she was going to have sex with him. 

However, Lovato admitted, "It didn't fix anything, it didn't take anything away. It just made me feel worse, but that, for some reason, was my way of taking the power back. All it did was bring me back to my knees begging God for help."

Lovato also alleged that she had been sexually assaulted as a teenager and "lost my virginity in a rape." Though she said she and her alleged attacker had been "hooking up" at the time, the singer explained that she told him clearly she hadn't been "ready" to lose her virginity.

Lovato said she later told adults about the assault, but her alleged attacker "never got in trouble for it." "They never got taken out of the movie they were in," she said.

 

 

In the final episode of the docuseries, the singer said she decided to no longer be completely sober and doesn't restrict herself from marijuana and alcohol.

"I've learned that shutting the doors on things makes me want to open the door even more. I've learned that it doesn't work for me to say, 'I'm never going to do this again,'" she shared.

Lovato continued, "I've really, really struggled with this. I'm done with the stuff I know is going to kill me, right? But I wish that I could get some relief maybe through, like, weed or something, and telling myself that I can never have a drink or smoke marijuana, like, I feel like that's setting myself up for failure because I am such a black and white thinker."

"Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil" is set to be released on YouTube on March 23.

Demi Lovato Recording artist Demi Lovato attends the Billboard Music Awards at MGM Grand Garden Arena on May 20, 2018, in Las Vegas, Nevada. Photo: Getty Images/Frazer Harrison