KEY POINTS

  • Leah Messer got candid about her opioid addiction and suicidal thoughts
  • Leah Messer aborted her first baby with ex Jeremy Calvert
  • Leah Messer claimed her babysitter sexually abused her

“Teen Mom 2” star Leah Messer has opened up about her opioid addiction and other issues.

In an interview with Entertainment Tonight, Messer shared what fans could expect from her upcoming memoir “Hope, Grace & Faith.” Messer also got candid about her struggles with opioid addiction and her other problems. She also shared why she wrote the book.

“I don’t want anyone else to feel alone. I don’t want anyone else to feel ashamed of their story. So I was like, I get to speak up. I get to use my voice. I get to speak my truth... If I can save one life from addiction, one life from suicide, that's where my heart is,” Messer told ET.

Messer admitted that her struggle with opioid addiction at the time prompted her to seek help because she noticed that she’s been thinking of committing suicide. She realized that she didn’t want to leave her daughters.

“When I wanted to commit suicide, that's when I realized there was an underlying issue,” Messer confessed. “Being suicidal and wanting to take my life and leave my girls without a mom is what led me to seek... you know, I needed help. And that was OK. And it was OK.”

The “Teen Mom” star said that she looked back at the footage of the old episodes of her reality show and couldn’t believe what she was seeing. In fact, she would ask herself if it was really her on the show.

“I draw blanks to the period of my life, because it doesn’t seem like that was... it doesn’t even... I look at it and I’m like, was that really me? Was I really nodding off?” Messer continued.

“Like, was I really under that much medication? It didn’t even dawn on me until I was finally like, I don’t even want to live anymore. I’m not worth, like, my life is not worth living. And then it was like, my management and MTV stepped in.”

In her memoir, Messer shared that she aborted her first baby with ex-husband Jeremy Calvert. She admitted that she did it because she was devastated that it would end her chance with her former husband Corey Simms.

Messer also claimed that her babysitter sexually abused her. It reportedly went on for six months until her family moved to North Carolina.

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Leah Messer posted a photo of her bare face on Instagram, but some are questioning the authenticity of the snap. MTV